“BE BRAVE: What dead dream do you need to mourn?”
— 100 Days to Brave: Devotions for Unlocking Your Most Courageous Self by Annie F. Downs
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This is a bit embarrassing an personal to write in a public forum...
For the most part, my dreams since high school have come true. I wanted to be a sports broadcaster. That dream took shape a number of different ways as I discovered and worked my way through the industry. I realized that being the next Samantha Ponder by age 23 probably wasn’t going to happen.
My dream of working in the Twin Cities at a broadcast affiliate there probably wasn’t going to happen as soon as I wanted.
But I have a great job. I get to do amazing things. I have learned a lot through a lot of success and a lot of failure.
That’s professionally... personally, there are a few dreams that didn’t come true the way I had quite pictured.
Truly, when I went to Bethel as a freshman, I thought I was supposed to meet my husband. My brother met his wife at a Bethel event and they dated for a year and a half and then got married by age 24.
I thought that was supposed to happen to me. It seemed that with every family function and catch-up with friends outside of school came with the question, “so have you met anyone yet?”
Now, most of the pressure, I’ll admit, I put on myself. I thought that it was supposed to happen. So... I put myself in a couple of situations with people I should not have been with, romantically, that looking back I absolutely should not have been with
I wasn’t supposed to meet my husband in college. That is a dream I have and need to continue to mourn.
But I also see with fantastic clarity how that would not have been God’s plan for me and how I wasn’t ready to give myself to another person during that time.
How I still might not be. The difference between 19-year-old Kelly and 24-year-old Kelly is staggering.
I’m also filled with a great deal of hope that God DOES have a plan for that part of my life. That He knows the desires of my heart to find a mate that loves God and loves me.
All in His timing.
Okay, enough of the love stuff, seriously.
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